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Existential Crisis
He questions the nature of reality and his place in it.
The theme of existential crisis is a recurring one in Matthew Williamson's archive, with posts spanning nearly two decades. Early posts like [Nightmare (2007)] and [Dreamstate Dialogue (2008)] feature vivid and unsettling dreamscapes, suggesting a sense of disorientation and disconnection from reality. Later posts, such as [I am lost (2019)], express a more explicit sense of existential despair, with the speaker feeling trapped and unmoored. The thread evolves over time, with posts like [The Buddha's Miracles (2014)] and [The Emergence: Part Four (2024)] introducing spiritual and philosophical themes as potential ways to navigate or transcend existential crises. Throughout the archive, Matthew Williamson's exploration of existential crisis remains a deeply personal and often haunting one, as seen in posts like [The Light Next Door (2026)].
9 posts, in order
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March 2007
Who am I? or Who is me?
My eyes were closed yesterday for a couple of hundred miles. The car was zooming along the interstate headed home. The sun was shining and the lanes were clear,...
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November 2007
Nightmare
The group, ten or more of us, walked in silence under the beech trees. The sun was low in the sky and the shadows where coming at strange angles, making it look...
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December 2008
Dreamstate Dialogue
Bubbles race up and past me as I fall deeper into the dark below. I should feel the water around me, crushing against me, but there is nothing - no wetness, no ...
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July 2009
The Prince, a Monk, and Tea
There is a kingdom called Sukhavati, the Realm of Bliss, it is land of light and magic, prayer and chanting, knowledge and compassion. Within it there dwells a ...
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August 2009
Dreams and Meanings
Last night I had a strange dream. It was today, in today's world, but I was visiting my grandparents in the home they lived in while I was a kid. As I drove up ...
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June 2012
The Fate of Judas Iscariot
I was sent this in an email from a Dharma sister, and I love it. Baba Sawan Singh was asked about the fate of Judas Iscariot A Christian missionary once asked B...
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March 2014
The Buddha's Miracles
A friend sent me this story to help me understand, and I wanted to share it with you. Sravasti is the site of the Great Miracles performed by the Buddha Shakyam...
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November 2019
I am lost
I am lost Nothing to see Nothing to touch Nothing to hold To taste To feel To be No walls make this prison cell No bars on no windows No chains on my ankles No ...
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October 2024
The Emergence: Part Four
Week Seven – Friday – 0730 Zulu Naomi’s Home – Suburban Oklahoma City Naomi stood at the kitchen counter, absently pouring coffee into her mug, her mind far fro...